rants
Saturday, February 16, 2008
So i talked with Jyr minn over the phone last night. 2 years of emotion spilled out from such a long time of suppression. I was crying as i talked to her, as i reiterated how i felt. I told her she's making me feel the same way she probably felt when yt got a bf: insanely jealous. It's such a nasty feeling. You know you shouldn't feel that way, but you cant help it. Jealousy makes you feel like an evil person. I told her how it's making me feel sad and inferior, because i keep thinking whether issit my fault; issit that im not as fun, not as hip, not as popular.
To make it worse, even lee gek says that last time its like, she always see me and dawn as best friends, now its like jyr minn and dawn. that makes it suck all the more can =(
Hais. Is it my fault? Sometimes i think that im really too unadaptable to change le. I want everything to remain the same, for old friends not to have new, and just stick to each other till old, when we still can talk and meet up to play, go shopping for our grandchildren's clothes. Naive. People change and won't ever remain the same. Perhaps even i am also changing too.
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