rants
Friday, July 27, 2007
I am sorry that i have come across as someone who is so insignificant and silly that it won't matter to insult or to make fun of. Jokes are only funny when other people are the ones being made fun of, isn't it? And in most cases, I'm the "other people".
Well, i should have got used to this long ago.
Perhaps all of you have forgotten, but this year, i had organised an outing. An outing that everybody agreed to go, but eventually backed out of, one by one. I genuinely believed everyone's excuse, but? the truth was, they were all gathered somewhere else, doing something else. And nobody bothered to tell me the truth.
To be treated as though you're worth nothing, and be made fun of at the expense of everybody's pleasure. How would you like it if it's done to you?
I know that i am ugly. i know that. i don't need reminders. by posing as someone in charge of a beauty contest, and calling up to tell me i've been nominated... are you sure you are a friend? You've done sth so cruel. And yet you apologise so frivolously. " don't be angry la, treat you to gingerbread biscuits okay?"
Hah. I've always knew that i'm not really part of the gang. nobody really sees me anyway. If i'm there, then okay. But it won't ever matter if i wasn't.
♥ i wrote about my beautiful day at 9:15 PM!
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