rants
Friday, January 12, 2007
I am not in a bad mood, this is just a reflection im so disappointed in myself. however, in a way, i knew it would happen. how would i ever be in? im not blaming anyone except myself. im always this forgetful, this irresponsible.
my aim this year, is to not get an MC.
(gb)anyhow, am still disliking her. I just can't accept her; her actions look fake, her words awkward. She does not need my acceptance, so she might want to know that, she doesn't have to talk to me if i am giving her a black face. I, myself, wouldn't talk to someone who dislike me.
to the girls, sometimes, when you think that you are not hurting the person, you are actually hurting them. Saying that you are a friend, that you treat the person as a friend, does not equate to her being a friend. it can be sensed, through your attitude, through your actions and words. you may think that you are right, but on another person's perspective, you appear hypocritical, and all talk.
everything is always my fault. when i was walking in the rain just now, i sang. it was great. i felt everything being washed off. perhaps that was what i needed. a new beginning.
(e2)there are some people whom i feel doesn't like me, and think that i am extra in the gang. but at least i have the common sense to judge whether things are neccessary to be done or not. some things you all do, are just so dumb. me and another person feel so out; its like nobody would even care even if we're not around. we don't matter. you did this much for her birthday. but will anyone else remember the rest, and how much they matter too? i didn't in the past. but now, i will try. cuz it sucks to feel neglected; i know.
i am not trying to fault people, just needed to vent out my thoughts.
Labels: randomness, reflections
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